I've tried dieting a lot....like my entire life. I was successful once in my early 20's. I just left my husband and was 220 lbs. at 6 feet tall...I wanted to lose 40 lbs. I joined Weight Watchers and lost 40 lbs. but I also didn't do it the right way. I counted points but I also starved myself during the week so I could go out and binge drink on the weekend when I went out to party. And I partied...A LOT. I went dancing sometimes twice each weekend and I had a lot of sex so I was burning a lot of calories.
Then, after the partying was kind of over (my wild year) I met who is now my husband and father to my two beautiful daughters. After meeting him and dating and then moving in together, the weight slowly was creeping back on (he was a great cook btw). When I was 28, I got pregnant. By the end of that pregnancy, I was 315 lbs. After I had her, I dropped to 260 relatively quickly, but that's where I stayed. I joined Jenny Craig, thinking it would be easy for me to not think about food while I was caring for a newborn and working. I got down to 240 but then financially I couldn't keep that up. When i was 30, I was pregnant again with our second child. I started out at about 240 and at the end of that pregnancy, I was almost 300 lbs. Again, afterwards, I lost down to about 260 and stayed there. Over the past 3 years, I've dieted, I've worked out but not consistently. Life always gets in the way. Last month, I was about 250. I got on the scale the other day (after a month of vacations and wedding festivities), I did NOT like what it said. 258. :(
The funny thing is, I don't feel terribly fat. I know I am...I get that but maybe because I've been at this weight for so long it's almost comfortable to me. But I don't want to be here. So, through my gym-California Family Fitness-I won a trivia question to give me 50% off their 8 week Body Fit Challenge. It starts 8/13. I am very excited to start. I turn 34 next week and I want the 2nd half of my 30's to be healthy and I know I will be a happier person if I get this weight off! I also think I really need a schedule. The summer has not been able a schedule at all. When my daughter is in school, I was doing good...taking her to school, then immediately going to the gym. But now that school is out-I've become lazy and I'm tired of it.
Today, we are going back to the gym. I love classes, but I think I am not ready for classes again yet. I'm going to ride the bike or walk on the treadmill or do the elliptical. Something to get some activity. And my eating-I have to pay attention. I have this wonderful thing called an Exerspy (like the BodyBug you see on the Biggest Loser) that tracks my calories burned but I can also log my food for the day and set goals. I'm going to start using it again. :)
So, here i go. Wish me luck and success. My goal is 185. I looked great at this weight and I think that's a good goal for me. So about 75 lbs.
Angel :)
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